Dear Seamus,

Something many of us struggle with is trust. Depending on our individual perceptions and beliefs, we can get caught up in feeling that others are untrustworthy, that others will violate us or that the world is out to get us. Yet the greatest crime we can commit is against ourselves. You see, when we don’t trust ourselves, we don’t trust life.

One day a dear friend made an interesting comment about us living in a ‘prescriptive’ society. At every turn we are given directions and instructions on all manner of things, from parenting to what to eat to finding a mate, all steeped in the mental constructs of right and wrong. The issue with this is that there can be many contradictory messages and the barrage of opinion is replicated in our minds, like several talkback radio stations playing at once. This only serves to block out the softly spoken voice of our inner guidance.

In the past I lived life with a deep seated fear. I always felt I was at the mercy of situations that happened to me. I deluded myself into thinking that I could stay one step ahead of the game by doing something about my circumstances. What I have come to realise is that when we are sensing discomfort and restlessness we often want to act.

We ask ourselves ‘What should I do now’?

It’s like we are taking the energy of transformation and exhausting it in the doing when it is really the time for being. Then our growth in consciousness is sidelined by distraction. Often the areas in life that we become frustrated with are symptomatic of something much more powerful that is simply still submerged deep inside us.

When we have that feeling that something is just not right anymore, that is to be trusted beyond anything else. It is the first clue that a transfiguration is beginning to take place. However we must not rush out to change anything, instead we must simply be so that the change can reconstruct us, from the inside out.

In his book A New Earth, Eckhart Tolle writes; “Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at the moment” This speaks to me of trusting the process of life.

From the stillness the next step will come and it will come with clarity and conviction. From that place of knowing, any action you take will be exactly right for you to forward you in your very unique human experience.

I have written to you before about us not being privy to the bigger picture, to the great unfolding of energy that is happening around us and through us at any given moment. At times in your life there will be challenges and uneasiness and even hardship but because we have labelled these things as bad, we want to avoid them at all costs. Yet these experiences are required for our growth, for the realisation of who we really are.

In the knowing that the world is a reflection of the thoughts we are having, if there are issues with trusting others then it is a giant red flag that we are not trusting ourselves. I will say it again, if we do not trust ourselves, we do not trust life.

The Dalai Lama says “There is nothing to trust seeking happiness from outside, you will only become exhausted with suffering, with is without satisfaction and without end”
If we look outside to find anything to fulfil us then we will be disappointed. Whether we experience it sooner or later, it will come. However when we trust the magical, incomprehensible force of life that streams through us there can be no disappointment because we have no attachment to a certain outcome. It’s when we surrender the reigns and begin to allow that we really reap the rewards of our spiritual prosperity.

Know this my beautiful boy, life is working on your behalf, always. It is an immeasurable force that is working for the good of everyone, such is its incredible might. Trusting yourself is trusting life.

“If you can trust, something or other will always happen and will help your growth. You will be provided for. Whatsoever is needed at a particular time will be given to you, never before it. You get it only when you need it, and there is not even a single moment´s delay. When you need it you get it, immediately, instantly! That´s the beauty of trust. By and by you learn the ways of how existence goes on providing for you, how existence goes on caring about you. You are not living in an indifferent existence. It does not ignore you. You are unnecessarily worried; all is provided for. Once you have learnt the knack of trust, all worry disappears”Osho


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Melanie Rose Killick

Melanie Rose Killick writes to her baby son Seamus about life, death and the amazing gift of cancer.

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